A blank feeling

A Morning of blank feeling (scared,shocked and happy all at once)

For the past couple of weeks I have been going walking/jogging almost every morning at about 5:30 in the morning. sometimes in the evening the family will enjoy a nice walk together. Me and my wife will put the little Guy in the stroller an set out for a good time of walking, and talking about the day. I enjoy this time together, no phone or T.V. In the mornings I take my Ipod to listen to sermons from Word of life church in St.Jo. I was listening to a service Born after midnight this past Saturday morning. It was about 7:00 in the morning. My wife didn’t have to get up to go to work so I went late on my walk.

Pastor Brian was talking about when Paul preached to after midnight, and how sometimes we just want to go to sleep but maybe we should stay up after midnight with God. By this time I was about 15 minutes into my walk. That when it happened, I saw my 2 year old son running up the middle of the road , saying ”Da Da”. My heart just dropped to the ground. At that moment I had no feeling in me. I didn’t know how he got there at first. My mind started going crazy, I was crying and just glad to be holding him. I picked him up as fast as I could get to him, to be honest I don’t even remember if I ran to him or not, it’s a blank.

I do remember picking him up and hugging him. kissing him. When I saw him we were about 1/4 mile or better from our home. We were not on my road. We were several roads away. I can’t believe a 2 year old almost 3 could open up a front door and a security door and chase me down. The image is still in my head and it most likely be there for the rest of my life.

He went all this way untouched. That’s when it hit me. He was not crying or scared. He was happy because that morning Angels was watching him and they carried him to me. He was not afraid because God was holding his hand. He was not lost because Jesus was his guide. I learned a huge lesson that morning. I will never doubt that God was there and the protection he had.

Psalms 91:9-11 in the (NLT) If you make the Lord your refuge, if you make the Most High your shelter, no evil will conquer you; no plague will come near your home. For he will order his angels to protect you wherever you go.

This is what kept my family together that morning. Not one car came down the road. Not on thing touched him. he came straight to me like he had a map. He was not afraid. Why? Because psalms 91 lived in him. God I can’t tell you thanks enough, my tears will never dry, my heart will never change, My love will never cease. I love you and thank you, Amen.



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